Lemon Jelly - '68 aka Only Time

So I got back yesterday from Vail, Colorado. It's such a great place that it felt like I was coming back to reality in Texas. Hot weather, flat landscape, and nothing in particular to set it apart from any other state in the country. But instead of going further in bashing Texas, which isn't all that bad, I'd rather talk about something else.

My brother is now officially married. The whole time spent out there as a groomsmen for him was great, and really opened my eyes on a couple things. The first is that everyone has their own path in life. Maybe it's the recent plunge further into communications classes, maybe it was the thin air, or maybe it was the alcohol. Whatever it was, it let me see in some people where they've come from and where they are now. I could tell who'd been picked on in high school, who'd always had everything right there for them, and several other insights. It made me wonder how easily people read me. Can someone talk with me for five minutes and deem me this or that? I guess that's a rhetorical question...

The other major thought to cross my mind was about marriage itself. I can't say that it's something I feel anywhere near ready for, but it did make me look at my past. Past girlfriends, girls I look at while out on the street, etc. I don't think anyone I've dated or had interest in would qualify for marriage material; even the ones I dated and dropped me instead of the other way around. It's not meant as a slight to anyone, as they will probably find the one for them and be happy, I just haven't found the one for me yet. My brother set the bar pretty high, and I'm going to try to match it. I really like that course of action, because not only does it keep me from thinking about it all the time, it also puts the power back in my hands. No longer am I worried about whether or not I am good enough for someone else, but instead, are they good enough for me? Does that person have what it would take for me to want to wake up beside them for the rest of my life? My guess is 99% of the time, no, and when I do find that 1%, it'll go a lot smoother than it would've before this last weekend.

Those are my rambling thoughts. I'll continue with the fall preview and some more movie reviews soon, I hope!

1 Comments:

 Anonymous said (9/10/2005 2:35 PM),  

I like the way you think about marriage...

As far as Texas not having any defining factors as a state:
The Texas Hill Country is much better than Dallas. My allergies aren't bad here either.

frogfren